♥
written on; Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Some things I want to let you guys know :)
1) I've decided to NOT go to study hall. so, I've been going to the library everyday (like, literally EVERYDAY) after school to complete my homework. Sometimes, I don't get to finish it because there's just so much shit to do, especially from methods.
2) Some asshole (I think I know who, but that person doesn't wanna admit) wrote my name in one of the study rooms in the G.W library. they even wrote Year 11 and GWSC next to it. That was obviously last year. but seriously. how rare? I took a picture of it. and put white out over my name. You can go look for it. it's not hard.
I keep going on about this because I don't like my name written THERE. like what the heck, without my 'consent' somemore -.-" grrrrr.
3) I'm changing history rev to business management. Yes, back to business management. That's if Penso lets me. I have to go see him tomorrow at 7 something in the morning to confirm this. please, please please, let me get back in to business!
4) I'm in love with the Rainie&Love album :) I love almost all her songs there! and I was actually considering recording one with me singing, but I too paiseh. because i sing very teruk. but one day, I will. that one day, is when I'm totally in that 'GO FOR IT' mood, and 'DON'T CARE' mood -.-"
5) School photos are on Thursday. and I can't believe it's the last time I'm EVER gonna smile for school photos. from year 4, to year 12. woah. I hope i'll look good :D hahaha. Cos I always look shit in all my school photos. I either look constipated, tomato-ed face, evil, tired, or hospitalized, etc.
6) So like... CNY and Vday on Sunday. I'm not celebrating any of it. but I want to go out that day. How nice if nichkhun flies over to my house and asks me to be his valentine........ *slaps face* ♥♥♥ hehehe. or that guy. I think I'll faint lor. *v*
7) year12 camp on monday-wednesday next week. not looking forward to it. It's suppose to be exciting for people.... but I'm really not looking forward to it. crap people. crap. sighs*
8) Doppelganger week apparently. I loled at some peoples doppelganger. I put mine as so eun and kimbum ♥ total loves man. I'm like the complete opposite of her. but who cares *v*
But if I were to really put.... It'd be rainie yang. i can't be bothered explaining. yeah i know, I don't look like her. shush now.
9) I am currently admiring someone. no, not like, not crushing. Get the word right. ADMIRING. aye-dee-am-eye-are-eye-and-gee. gee gee gee gee baby baby baby. and I'm calling him S.G.J. Not SG wannabe you noob. S.G.J. yeeee man, I call him that.
10) I admire S.G.J ♥ *v* - just like how I admire kimbeom & nichkhun :)
ps: I'm a little crazy right now. I'm just saying whatever that is on my mind :)
can we go back to THAT night?
written on; Sunday, February 7, 2010
shoving your leg at the camera , showing me your big eyes, dancing very weird dances, talking gibberish for hours, making silly faces you never do at school
making me smile and laugh the entire time.
Malaysia
written on; Saturday, February 6, 2010
Ole Ole Bali
Dining at Ole Ole Bali with mummy, in Sunway Pyramid.
Hahhaa. I'm wearing exactly the same thing now as in that picture.
the 'atmosphere' was really nice and relaxing.
The food was good too! ... although I forgot the name of it and stuff -.-" but that's cos all this happened like one month ago :( I have bad memory okaaaayy.
this looks like salad to me :S
my salmon :D ahhh, my love for salmon.
MY AWESOME DRINK!
forgot what was in there... I think it was papaya and some other stuff. Not to say it was 'delicious' or anything... it was different. quite nice :) and very cooling.
Synna's "surprise" farewell dinner
Alicia, my ex-primary school friend invited me to synna's surprise farewell dinner. I didn't know whether or not to go because I was scared I was gonna be alone :S But anywaaaaays, I went. Because it was my only chance to see her again (after 7 years!!! - just for a reminder :P), since she was going to Penang to study.
I was shy >___>" Didn't talk much, though I did try. Funny how my friends kept asking why I was so quiet/shy.
my shyness led me to not taking as much pictures T______T which I TOTALLY REGRET!
Anyway, I took a few;
this is kuok wei, darren and wei zhi ?
alicia and I !!
these bunch of boys are funny. *giggles* seems to me that they're forever hungry. ahhah. and they were super loud 8D
my lovely ex-primary school girls and I ♥♥
after that, the bunch of us squeezed in to two?three? cars, to zhi wei's house. played gold fish (wth -.-"). and then yeah, went home.
it was great meeting up with them again :D
good luck with college, Synna!
hope to see you all again end of this year (:
RANDOM!
took this picture at that japanese sweet shops in mid valley.
my favourite chocolates!!! they're so omg-yummy. but they're damn expensive. and I hardly get to eat them D:
took this picture at that japanese sweet shops in mid valley.
my favourite chocolates!!! they're so omg-yummy. but they're damn expensive. and I hardly get to eat them D:
my meltykiss ♥
Queenie, my bee in Malaysia!♥
Waaaahahhaa. I was super excited for this daaaaay! because my b was flying from hongkong to Malaysia. and I was gonna see her after like sooooo long.
so like you knowww... must pan leng.
but i was rushing like shit, I did my make up in the car - epic fail.
i look weird :S nevermindddd, b is right next to me.
dad dropped us off at sunway pyramid (againn omg) and we only had about an hour to walk around. so i just brought her to asian avenue (because that place is like so awesome because everything is so cheap because it's asian). didn't buy much though. hahaha, we bought anklets and I bought a necklace (3 for RM10 - CHEAP OR WHAT?!)
STICKER PHOTOOOOOOOOO.
my favourite sticker photo!!! :D
Later, we went for dinner in damansara. at some seafood place (:
yeah man, camwhored like siao.
queenie bought an instax!!! ♥
and we took some.
next day;
THIS IS FOR YOU B! :P
Went to osaka to dye my hair.
Nah, I didn't fly to Japan just to do my hair. hahhaa. The name of the salon is called Osaka (:
If you say you can't see the colour, I will dig your eyes out.
That night, we met up with the Lo family again (:
@ asia cafe.
b.
okay, so the large fruit drinks there is SERIOUSLY HUMONGOUS.
look at it! AS BIG (OR BIGGER) AS THE SIZE OF OUR HEADS!
oh food... oh glorious malaysian food... I miss you so much.
Right now, I want to eat satay.
queenie and matthew.
so cutee (:
And uhhh... it was actually someones birthday that day.
Someone turned 21 that day.
and that someone, was queenie's elder brother, Ivan.
Happy 21st birthday :D
i got china eyesss D:
Ivan, Queenie and I
Queenie, my bee in Malaysia!♥
Waaaahahhaa. I was super excited for this daaaaay! because my b was flying from hongkong to Malaysia. and I was gonna see her after like sooooo long.
so like you knowww... must pan leng.
but i was rushing like shit, I did my make up in the car - epic fail.
i look weird :S nevermindddd, b is right next to me.
dad dropped us off at sunway pyramid (againn omg) and we only had about an hour to walk around. so i just brought her to asian avenue (because that place is like so awesome because everything is so cheap because it's asian). didn't buy much though. hahaha, we bought anklets and I bought a necklace (3 for RM10 - CHEAP OR WHAT?!)
STICKER PHOTOOOOOOOOO.
my favourite sticker photo!!! :D
Later, we went for dinner in damansara. at some seafood place (:
yeah man, camwhored like siao.
queenie bought an instax!!! ♥
and we took some.
next day;
THIS IS FOR YOU B! :P
Went to osaka to dye my hair.
Nah, I didn't fly to Japan just to do my hair. hahhaa. The name of the salon is called Osaka (:
If you say you can't see the colour, I will dig your eyes out.
That night, we met up with the Lo family again (:
@ asia cafe.
b.
okay, so the large fruit drinks there is SERIOUSLY HUMONGOUS.
look at it! AS BIG (OR BIGGER) AS THE SIZE OF OUR HEADS!
oh food... oh glorious malaysian food... I miss you so much.
Right now, I want to eat satay.
queenie and matthew.
so cutee (:
And uhhh... it was actually someones birthday that day.
Someone turned 21 that day.
and that someone, was queenie's elder brother, Ivan.
Happy 21st birthday :D
i got china eyesss D:
Ivan, Queenie and I
stay together
written on; Thursday, February 4, 2010
So much was running through my mind before, but 90% of it disappeared after Tony (Liu) said "ice kaching". I was (literally) pointing and laughing at my monitor, and I nearly fell off my chair. Ahhhh.
Anyway... so, the first week of year 12 is nearly done. I'm actually quite enjoying my year 12 life, SO FAR - still too early to say. Like, eventhough some of the subjects I've chosen isn't my cup of tea... and the people from my classes are not my really close friends... year 12 and I are getting along ... (wth, why talk like year12 and I are friends liddat -.-")
BUT. There's one thing that is making me feel... different? not the same? I don't know. Or perhaps a little disappointed? - but in who? - nobody.
Yeah, so one week has passed. NONE of my close friends are in my class and it feels rather odd not having any of them in my class. also, the lockerbay is kinda 'splitted' - upstairs and downstairs. and some of my friend(s) lockers are downstairs (while I'm upstairs). and the point I want to make is; I feel like we're drifting away from each other.
You know the saying, "Friends come and go". Urgh, not implying it on us. but, I feel like we'll slowly be further apart from each other. *CHOY touch wood*
At least last year I had a close friend from each class. Methods with Darleen. Chemistry with Joey. Business management with May, Tracy and Vincent. English with Priscilla. Maths standard with Michelle.
but this year, I have NONE of them. which is like so devastating. In practically all my classes, I feel a little alone. but I still have to bear with it. True, I make new friends and stuff... but it's not the same. I TRIED, *connecting* with them and stuff... but it's so hard. because *FACT*: YES, I AM A QUIET PERSON. I only go super talkative and hyper around my close friends, or you randomly start talking about 2PM or some other kpop stuff.
and it's so hard for me cos I get nervous easily. Every time I try to start a conversation with someone, I have to create the sentence in my mind, THEN speak. I can feel myself stuttering as I'm speaking and I feel my hands getting all sweaty. YOU'LL KNOW when I'm nervous - I get tongue twisted.
I try hard to be nice to my classmates.
but it's just not the same.
And because we're all separated from each other, and only get to spend recess (freaking 15 mins) and lunch (freaking 45mins) together.... which only adds up to like 1 hour.... it's not enough. Totally forgot what I was gonna say... but anywhoos :(
I'm just scared that we'll slowly be drifting away from each other because of the new friends we've made in other classes. I'm afraid that we won't be as close anymore. I'm scared things will get awkward between us cos we're not as close as before. Gosh, what am I thinking.
I'm just scared. that's all.
I know I'm thinking wayyyyy to far.... but; what on earth is gonna happen AFTER highschool? Everyone is taking different paths, different courses, different unis, DIFFERENT COUNTRIES? WTH (NUUUUU)
I miss being with my friends.
eventhough I see them everyday.
once again - it's not the same anymore.
but I feel that some of them don't really care about this matter? :S
Anyway... so, the first week of year 12 is nearly done. I'm actually quite enjoying my year 12 life, SO FAR - still too early to say. Like, eventhough some of the subjects I've chosen isn't my cup of tea... and the people from my classes are not my really close friends... year 12 and I are getting along ... (wth, why talk like year12 and I are friends liddat -.-")
BUT. There's one thing that is making me feel... different? not the same? I don't know. Or perhaps a little disappointed? - but in who? - nobody.
Yeah, so one week has passed. NONE of my close friends are in my class and it feels rather odd not having any of them in my class. also, the lockerbay is kinda 'splitted' - upstairs and downstairs. and some of my friend(s) lockers are downstairs (while I'm upstairs). and the point I want to make is; I feel like we're drifting away from each other.
You know the saying, "Friends come and go". Urgh, not implying it on us. but, I feel like we'll slowly be further apart from each other. *CHOY touch wood*
At least last year I had a close friend from each class. Methods with Darleen. Chemistry with Joey. Business management with May, Tracy and Vincent. English with Priscilla. Maths standard with Michelle.
but this year, I have NONE of them. which is like so devastating. In practically all my classes, I feel a little alone. but I still have to bear with it. True, I make new friends and stuff... but it's not the same. I TRIED, *connecting* with them and stuff... but it's so hard. because *FACT*: YES, I AM A QUIET PERSON. I only go super talkative and hyper around my close friends, or you randomly start talking about 2PM or some other kpop stuff.
and it's so hard for me cos I get nervous easily. Every time I try to start a conversation with someone, I have to create the sentence in my mind, THEN speak. I can feel myself stuttering as I'm speaking and I feel my hands getting all sweaty. YOU'LL KNOW when I'm nervous - I get tongue twisted.
I try hard to be nice to my classmates.
but it's just not the same.
And because we're all separated from each other, and only get to spend recess (freaking 15 mins) and lunch (freaking 45mins) together.... which only adds up to like 1 hour.... it's not enough. Totally forgot what I was gonna say... but anywhoos :(
I'm just scared that we'll slowly be drifting away from each other because of the new friends we've made in other classes. I'm afraid that we won't be as close anymore. I'm scared things will get awkward between us cos we're not as close as before. Gosh, what am I thinking.
I'm just scared. that's all.
I know I'm thinking wayyyyy to far.... but; what on earth is gonna happen AFTER highschool? Everyone is taking different paths, different courses, different unis, DIFFERENT COUNTRIES? WTH (NUUUUU)
I miss being with my friends.
eventhough I see them everyday.
once again - it's not the same anymore.
but I feel that some of them don't really care about this matter? :S
I just hope that we'll continue being close, and be like covalent-ly bonded (wtheck) eventhough we're not in the same classes and don't have much time with each other.
I love my friends. Really. Eventhough I'm a real bitch sometimes. I really do love them.
I love my friends. Really. Eventhough I'm a real bitch sometimes. I really do love them.
poor nampyon :(
written on; Wednesday, February 3, 2010
HAII, MY CURRENT DISPLAY PICTURE ON MSN IS NONE OTHER THAN
KIMBUM, AKA MY IMAGINERY NAMPYON.
KIMBUM, AKA MY IMAGINERY NAMPYON.
JinLee Gwsc09dd/mm/yyyy said (29/01/2010 at 11:01 PM):
ur dp picture looks like tony
JinLee Gwsc09dd/mm/yyyy said (29/01/2010 at 11:02 PM):
lool dont get affended plz
ESTELLE said (29/01/2010 at 11:04 PM):
and NUUU it doesn't look like tony T_T
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263/400 [b][u]tina[/b][/u] so you kind of make my cheeks hurt a lot because you make me smile so much :] says (8:13 PM):
ACHYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *hepatitis b, hiv, std's* PEWPEW! *diseases travel through comp screen to estelle*
your dp looks like tony >_>
ttyl afk
ESTELLE says (8:13 PM):
NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
-.-"
ber-lar-dii hell -_______-"
lots and lots of stuff to say about my first day :)
written on; Monday, February 1, 2010
I'm not used to seeing myself in a red jumper... or other 'year 12s' wearing a red jumper. We all look so freaking old now.... like 6 years older. But anywhooos, I was only looking forward to wearing my red jumper :D But the weather was pretty warm today. so, I took it off. ergh.
YEE MAN! so I got back safe and sound after my first day of being a year 12. Assembly was sooooo boring because the teachers keep saying the same old stuff. And I also realised that the teachers always like to say, "OH, and one last thing", when really ... they still have a thousand words to say -.-"
I'm SO extremely lucky. My locker is in the BEST POSITION EVER. Especially when our locker bay area is always so damn cram because there's just so many smelly people trynna rush to their locker. but I don't need to. cos....
MINE IS JUST AT THE 'ENTRANCE' OF THE LOCKER BAY. I DON'T EVEN NEED TO STEP INTO THE LOCKER BAY. WHICH. IS. THE BESSSSSHT! and what more? it's not a bottom locker nor a top :) middle locker. perfect for me.
But I experienced something terrible today. When I was heading towards my locker, of course I would have to pass by alot of people (as if I was in hongkong or something), trynna squeeze into every tiny gap there is. and sometimes, there's a 'student traffic jam' because there's some brainless people standing in the middle of the pathway with their massive bags, waiting for their friend(s). But anyway, today... I was stuck between many, many..... tall people. most likely to be guys. and it's just TERRIBLE because you know I AM A HUMANNN AND I NEED TO BREATHE. so while breathing, my nose is actually stuck on to the back of the armpits of the guy infront of me, and OMYGODDDDDDD YOU HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA HOW SMELLY THEIR FREAKING ARMPITS AREEEE. OXYGEN PUH-LEASE. So i turn to my right/left, and there's still their armpits facing towards me T_________T
so smelly. imagine me walking towards my locker with my head up.
but I guess this is the case since I'm only 158cm. And maybe I shall add this to the list of why I wish to be taller. even my black leathered shoes didn't save me. psh. poor nose/breathing system.
today would probably be the best day because I only had double methods. My teacher is Mrs? Miss? Payani. I don't know how good or bad she is, but she seems to be a nice teacher. this year, Ima suck up to all my teachers -.-"
I sat next to the two koreans, jin and danny. Quite awkward because they're just talking in korean the whole time. and they're quite fascinated with my new toothpaste pencil case thingy.
Jin gave me a piece of paper for I don't know what reason.
and I wrote:
'kimbum'
Danny laughed. took the piece of paper...
and wrote:
'kimbum = tony
goo jun pyo = danny
song woo bin = jin
yoon ji hoo = eric'
HAHAHAHAHA.
..... not one bit, danny.
year 12... already?
written on;
One of the kids at the orphanage said I am in form 2 - which is the equivalent of year 8... 14 years old. freaking-FOURTEEN. I even have PROOF! I recorded the cute girl saying I look 14. MUAHAHAHHAHA!
And apparently, this was what I looked like when I was fourteen.
Darleen and I
HAHA, what a joke. I was skinnier, kinda single eyelid-ed (yes, some miracle happened and I have kinda hidden double eyelids now) , had fatter lips. I was 14, in year 8, four years ago..... and that was when I realised.
I am in year 12 this year.
the OLDEST in the school now. I still remember when I was in year 6 (at GWPS) during our final days of primary school... We were told to write about what it is like going into year 7? - i think.
Going into year 7, was like a new beginning. it was like attending our first year of primary school, except it was highschool. After studying till year 6, the oldest in primary school... we had to go back to level 1 - year 7. 'the babies' in highschool. Where mistakes were taken more lightly by teachers. hpm.
year 7 Estelle
I still remember how LONG my dress was when I was in year 7. and how daunting detentions were. and how SCARY the year 12s were. and how OLDDDDDDDDD did they look man. Hahaha. Well well well, I guess this year I'm the scary, old year 12.
Time has seriously passed by SO fast. Year 7 didn't seem that long ago.
FIVE years has already passed by. Tomorrow, is the beginning of my BIG, and supposedly 'fun' year - according to all the previous year 12s heh. I'm looking forward to wearing my RED JUMPERRRRR. WAHOOOO. like finally. and I totally forgotten about how we're allowed to go out during LUNCH. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA SUCK ON THAT YEAR 11, 10, 9, 8 AND 7s! Just wait a few more years, and it'll be your turn in no time!
I'm a big big girl now.
I'm in year 12 this year :)
Good luck to ALL year 12s out there!
